I have so many mixed feelings today. I came down with the most important syntoms of depression. I noticed that sometimes I feel like this but I can tell that this time is different. I remember writing about something similar here, in the same scenario, same exact one, different reasons.
I don't know where can I find company...
Every time I feel like this, no one ever stays. They talk to me maybe for ten minutes, twenty but then the conversation ends and then I'm alone again. People sometimes don't understand how this feels maybe, or they don't know how to react. I really thought one person could but... the truth is that I am alone in this couch... I don't want to cry, but I really have to.
I just wish I had a friend... A best friend... Who I can just cry with her, instead of crying hysterically on the couch alone, with no one noticing. I just wish that for once I wasn't alone, I really need a friend... Just someone. Someone who I can put my weight on, who I can cry with. A hug. Company.
Maybe it's too much to ask. But I just feel so alone and I feel like everyone leaves me... No one calls me or anything... I just need someone to hold me. To just be with me without saying anything.
Depression is horrible, and the worst part is, you are alone.
